my granny..

Recently. I brought my granny to the doctor as she's having a little cough and a little flu..My heart ache for her~She's a super duper nice lady. She's nice to everyone she meet, she's nice to all the little kids in the neighbourhood, she's nice to all the neighbours, but she's now senile..It breaks my heart to see her like this. I used to love going over to her place after school ends, I used to like satying there till like 10pm at night before going home, I used to stay there when I was very young, before I went to school, I'm her most doted grandchild, but nowadays, when I visit her, she doesn't recognize me...
I just went up to my granny's house two days back, she ask me the same question again. my aunt always answer on my behalf, I always feel an urge to cry whenever she ask that question. I know she didn't want this to happen as well, but I just couldn't help it.. So now, it becomes a routine that after I visit her, I'll hide somewhere and cry a little before proceeding to other stuff.. If ever a fairy comes and ask if I have any wish, I'll definitely ask her to cure my granny.. Even if I have to sacrifice mine in return, I wouldn't consider even for another second..
Right now, I'll tried to keep myself as busy as possible to escape the cruelty of reality.. I can't imagine the day when my granny finally has to leave me..I don't dare to imagine.. I'm not brave enough to even think about it... ...