MoVieSszz

I think I'm nutz lohz, 2 posts in an hour..
Anyway, in the month of May, I watched 2 movies, PoSeiDon and Over the Hedge.. I had wanted to watch The Da Vinci Code initially, but I never read the book, plus its not my type of show..But those friends of my boi, they are practically movie freaks. They watched Over the Hedge, PoSeiDon(not all of them though), The Da VinCi Code,MIssion Impossible III, and they are catching X-Men: The Last Stand soon.
At this rate, my boi's gonna be broke, 'cause he's always paying for the tickets and I did not pay a single cent. Though it seems quite logical for my boi to pay but I'm still not used to letting my boi pay for almost everything for me. I guess its just me and my silly personality, I used to go dutch when with my ex...It's just my point of view..

I'm blogging(in class)

I'm finally done with my powerpoint slides, whoa~ It's one big relieve for me.. I did a really silly thing though, I went into THIS forum and started a frenzy to reach page 800th. The next time would be 900th and the grand 1 would be 1000..I'm part of the crazy gang..It's like 5 person on average, clock a total of 15 pages..

That's just part of it, I was down with a mild fever, so I couldn't work with a clear state of mind, then I woke up at 3am to tie up the loose ends of my projects.
I skip lecture for MIS for the very first time today, cannot blame me lahz, too tired mahz, plus my lecturer like to talk, so... ... *smilez*

I WILL SURVIVE!!!

Haiz..I still lost to the zzZZzz monster i the end, fell asleep in front of my lappy and it went into hibernation mode. Funny thing is, in order to keep me awake, I made myself a bottle of chicken essence, but I fell asleep before it is even ready. As in the drink is cold, so I heated it up. I can't take coffee, my doctor says so. If I take coffee, it's either the coffee that kills me, or he will kill me. Now I shall cheong my projects liao. Just did a count on the projects that have to be done: PROCOMM, WISP, MIS, ERP, DCI, IES & BLAW.. That ALOT sia..*giddy*

Quote

What does not kill me makes me stronger.
- Fredrich Nietsche

I believe I WILL SURVIVE!!! OMG, the zzZZzz monster is catching me..*gets up and scramble off to hide*

Nice?!?

HaHa, this is the work done by a group of NP year 3 students. So colourful hor..Can anyone see the link? Yes? No? HaHa..

Cutie~~

I waited pretty long to coax him into getting pictures..





He's adorable, huggable and kissable..Simply irresistable..

He's getting forgetful..

We agreed to catch a movie today after his work on Sunday, 21 May 2006, the day I took my assessment for dance. But he remembered nothing about it, only remembering that he's going over to a friend's place tomorrow. So my statues? Isn't it worse than just a friend, to think that I'm even looking forward to this day... ...So STUPID of me.. I kinda dislike his friends now, everytime he's back from activity with them, he'll be too tired to accompany me. He's sometimes too tired to even talk to me.. Do I look like I'm made of plastic?? Do I look like I've got no feelings?? Do I need to bring up the same issue more than once?? In that case, how many times exactly do I have to bring it up?? Here I am, trying to make time for him despite my hectic schedule..(NOTE: I'm in year 3 this year!! I'm doing TONS of projects!!!) And there he is, sleeping away the time I set aside just for him..

Smilez~

*He's just a kid in the neighbourhood, not mine, though I wish he is..*

Random Updates

Firstly is the Singapore Idol auditions...
I can't stop laughing, I'm so glad that I'm still alive with the "Campfire in the Moonlight" or the "NONG NONG AGO" song.. Then there's the kungfu hustle thingy and the cowboy stuff.. Loads of craps and lobsters siaz..
Secondly is the advertisement of one of the new shows that is coming up, the show name is called "A Journey Through Life". (I think its the name, its new, not shown yet, just the advertisement.) The funny part is I cried while watching the advertisement. It's about how people , who are physically handicapped, become heroes in a way unique to others. I admired the courage and the will for them to survice. I don't think that I'll be able to survive if I'm like deaf or blind. I felt so fortunate that I can see, can hear, can run around. I'm so useless..
Thirdly is the forum people. I really think that the devils are there to show how angelic the angels are..HaHa..Take for example the starter for this thread. He's that egoistic sonofabitch that has been mentioned in one of my previous post.I evryone on the road is like him, I might have been dead 'NONG NONG AGO~'*Bursts out laughing*

It's from my boi..

The helmet is mine, my boi bought it just for my use..The dog is here to accompany when he's too busy at work.. The dog's head is of hugable size, but not the body.. HeHe~

It's over..

Something that I have been anticipating for so long is finally here.. And it is over in a blink of an eye. The practice over the past two months, the shoes that I've bought, the skirt, the top, the accessories and the fees for this examination is showcased in my dance which lasted less than a minute. I'm glad that it's over as I can finally put my full strength on my school, but I'll definitely make it to the 2-dance category in October.. I'm waiting~

can I say I'm pretty fearless?

I did some of those stuff that I thought was crazy last night. I had a pretty bad day yesterday. Firstly, I have to work at (am in the morning. Then is my dance lesson, it's considered the most enjoyable time of the day, but it's only an hour. Time indeed flies when you're enjoying yourself..
After my lesson, I didn't feel like going hone, reason being I saw someone going towards my place while on my way to my dance lesson. In the end, I walked on and on. Finally deciding on Tekka Mall, since it's just standing right in front of me. To add on, I went there alone. So it looks kinda pathetic..While I was strolling around, spending time, I bought myself something to drink. I lingered around for barely a minute and I decided on it, Venom Ice. It'a not too bad though, just feel kinda weird when I was on the bus.
I purposely took the long way home as I knew it very well that they will still be at my home when I reach home. Just one little bottle of Venom Ice and I'm already red like a lobster. I'm such a loser... Then on the bumpy, long ride home, I felt like puking a nunmerous times. I drank lots of plain water to stop that kinda feeling, doesn't feel too good about it. When I think that I really cannot take that bumpy ride anymore, I just drop off at any stop and rest. I don't even know what stop is that and I just get down, isn't that a brainless action??
If I can think at that time, I would never do something so stupid as this. At the bus stop, I look at the streetlights, they look so pretty... They go dim and bright and dim again, and bright again..HaHa, I guess I'm a little drunk already.. It seems true that when you drink in a happy mood, you don't get drunk so easily.. I was drinking because there was no one there for me..

The next time, I will go for Hooch, thirty-three e, corona, that-dunno-what-tea, and all the beer available. But I really hope that I won't be drinking alone, on the streets like that again. Who knows what might happen if I got drunk and just slept in the streets..HaHa..
*Laughing at myself for my stupidity*

Updates for 17/05/06

Late entry, but never mind..It's always better to be late than never..
Anyway, 17th May is my boi's birthday, I had a real busy day as well..Firt thing in the morning is 2 make-up lessons from 9AM to 1PM due to the stupid e-learning. After that, I had a break from 1PM to 3PM. During this 2 hours, I went home and leave all unnecessary items at home and get my boi's gift. I bought him a denim jacket from LEE at $100, I was looking for LEVIS' actually, but couldn't find any, so I settled for the 2nd best. Plus I made some marshmellows coated with chocolates(I wonder who has been nibbling on my marshmellows, its left with only half when I return to get it that day...). Then from 3PM to 5PM, I went back to school for lecture. After my lecture, I took a train from Clementi to Tampines. I didn't realize that its actually so far... I thought its pretty near at first, but after I board the train, I counted 21 stops. Then I was like...*Oh God Blasts ME!!Why didn't I check before coming* Throughout the journey, the train was packed, I'm like dozing off, standing.. By the way, the reason I went to Tampines is to get the Tiramisu that my boi has been singing praises about. So after I get his favourite Tiramisu, I took a train donw to Tiong Bahru to mee4t him. At first he wanted to meet at Boon Lay, but I managed to change the location. (HaHa, I'm so proud of myself.) That gives me an excuse not to blog..But I'll still make up for it..1 thing I regret is forgetting to get the pictures of the Tiramisu and his denim. Haiz, blame it on my STM(short term memory)..

LooK aT thIS!!!

Can anyone believe this?!?! It's from my school website.. HaHa, I can't stop laughing siaz..My little brother can draw better than this siaz.. *Roll on the floor laughing*

I'm reckless...

I think that if I ever got my license, everyone will shun from me. This is because, I'm not the type that will make blunders in the learning process, but make all sorts of mistakes after I've learnt. Taking riding a bicycle as an example, I practically had no injuries when I was picking up the skill. It was only after I learnt it that I start having accidents. I had only minor bruise when I was learning. After I've learnt it, my bruises increase in number and in size. There's one occasion when I went riding at Pulau Ubin with my friends, then I had a major accidents, considering the injuries sustaine overall. I had scratches on my elbow, kneecap, my hands, my shoulders and a bit on my thighs. As for my friend, she had a big cut on her leg and her kneecap was badly injured. It was bleeding profusely, so I helped her to stop the bleeding with my extremely basic knowledge on first aid. But is did help to stop the bleeding for a while. The bicycle that I knocked into in slightly turned at the handle bar, my own has a little bigger porblem. The wiring for the brake is snapped. Its a downslope journey, and the accident happen at the foot of the slope. I couldn't stop in time, so two casualties reported. I've been cycling for so long, that is the worst accident that I ever had. Because of thie accideent, everyone is discouraging me to get my bike license. They all said that its better for me to get the car license, in that way, less incent people will be hurt. Then I was like: "Diaoz...What the heck lohz..Like that say me..."

Should I or should I not?

I've been considering this question for a very long time... Should I go and get my license? Or should I just wait for other to pillion/ chauffuer me around? I've been cracking my head on that issue, I had wanted to get my class 3 license initially, but my mind is on class 2b.. In the end, I finally convince myself to get BOTH of them...That's when my biggest problem arise. I haven't got that much money to do so many stuff!! I wanna take salsa, rumba, viennese waltz, swing, jive and so many more.. I wanna get my car license, my 3 bike license adn my wanna get my own tribal kips, then I'll proceed getting a black colour cb400 super four vtec 2, my final destination is haya busa, black oso... Everything is so planned, the only tripping stone blocking my way is money...

URGHZZzzz...
All problem indeed start aith money siaz..

talking about hospitals..

Actually, I don't really have very much faith and confidence in local hospitals and doctors. I thought that such things only happens in those drama and TV serials, but it has happened. Right here, in my family!! Those so-called doctors made a mistake in diagnosing my grandmother, telling her that she's suffering from cancer and has a tumor in her body. But when they operated, there was nothing there at all!!! Thoses shmeless organisation still has the cheek to charge a few thousand dollars for their mistake!! I don't understand!! I think I'm gonna piclk up more of the law knowledge, so that I can help those that has suffered due to the insufficient experience and knowledge of those doctors. My grandmother DID NOT die from cancer, she died from depression and under-nourishment. She's such a healthy and prominent women. My dad still grieves over her, even after so many years. I was born 1 week after her death. There are people in the neighbourhood that thinks that I am a jinx to her, some thinks that she reincarnated in me. I don't care. This is not the only one, I've got another TWO relatives that has suffered under the so-called advancement of medical science.. That's why I don't like doctors. That's why I have no trust and confidence in them treating my granny, dearest to me. Everytime I recall her holding my hand when I was young, I'll have the very strong urge to cry. She's like a child now, remembering only events that happen a very long time ago. She still thinks that she's in China, she came to Singapore with my grandpa when she was young. I miss her so much~ But I dare not go and visit her, to see her~ I;m afraid~ Right now, I felt moisture in my eyes again..Seeing her in this state, I couldn't bear to let her suffer, yet I can't bear to let her leave me..I felt lumps forming in my throat.. I wonder how long I can take this, I have no idea how many times things like that will happen again..Perhaps its just me being emotional.. ..

OUT TO KILL

I just wanna kill that idiot taking my class for IES(INTEGRATED E-BUSINESS SYSTEMS
)!!! He's such a pain in the ASS!!! I can't tolerate such arrogant attitude! So wghat if you are a lecturer!HUH!! So what that you are OLD! HUH!! You're more like abusing your power!! FARK THAT BASTARD !! (anyway, I don't think that anyone will wanna fark him, just look at him!! It's good enough to be able to look and not puke!!)
*snorts* OLD MAN IN HIS MENOPAUSE!!!

hmm... ...

I think when I'm half way through my projects, I'll start building the links and the archives of my blog..Then perhaps I'll insert some music videos and change abit of the layout..Everything's based on maybe. HaHa..
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I wanna go shopping!! I wanna go clubbing!! I wanna go KBOX!! I wanna go moovies!! I wanna SLEEP!! I wanna go REDANG!! I wanna go holidays~~

the world wide web has got all kinds of people..

http://www.singaporebikes.com/forum/index.php?s=f627e2765d26f12d2228d7117013bf77&showtopic=116921

Taking this tread as an example, the treadstarter is such an egositis sonofabitch siaz..I simply can't stand the way he is so bossy about the way he do things. He's always thinking that whatever he do, it's always right. He's so self-centered!!! He simply don't take comments seriously, thinking that the whole world is against him and stuff like that..But with the way he behave, how can anyone evr treat him nice?!? He's taking friends for foes, strangers as danger and I have absolutely no idea how hew had survive this far..

That's all folks..Gotta run and catch my lecture..Good gracious!! I'm late!!!

this is my dream bike

It has once been my dream bike, it alwayz will be..

I'm feeling so down.. ..

I was actually planning to help my mum in her little shop today, but I realize that I still have things left undone, I've gotta handle my school work!!!Why can't they be more understanding towards me?!?! Can they stop asking me why am I sleeping late?!?! (I alwayz put their assignments before my own. I try to finish theirs before starting on mine.)Isn't it obvious that I am just trying to help?!?! Why can't they show a little bit more appreciation?!?! If they had realized, I've been helping in the housework day-in-day-out!!! Can't they just treat me betta?!? I'm drained!!! And its just the beginning of the semester!!! I'm already in year 3 I'm very clear that I needed a lot more time than previous years..

All I did just now was ask my younger sister to help my mum in the shop. Her attitude is like I'm asking her to stand in the middle of the road and let a car run over her. So in the end, I'm the baddie who bully my younger siblings. Why do I have to degrade myself(zuo jian zi ji)?!?

I'm going nutzzZZ

While I was having breakfast just now, my younger brother ran over and starting pointing at stuffs and asking questions. I wasn't paying attention because this is his trick to be late for school, intention is to skip the spelling his class is having early in the morning. Then it happened. He knocked over a bowl of white and sticky stuff. I have no reaction initially, but when I realise that among the white stuff, there lay something black, something that looks liike my phone!!!
OMG~Now my phone is so sticky...So gross...I guess I'm not gonna bring my phone today. I really don't wanna hold that sticky thing near my face..OOooooHHHhhhhh
(my statues for today:MISSING)

black black black

Your true color is Black!


Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

Is that true?? Its up to individual, agree? *smilez*

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I just wanna scream my lungs out and shout my heart out!! I NEED TO DESTRESS!!!

First, when I was on the bus just now, I saw this old lady, in her 70s, boarding the bus. The bus was crowded then, no one gave up their seat to this old lady(I was already standing, so there's nothing I can do). Absolutely NO ONE stood up to give up their seat. What's more, its all those youngsters on the bus, mostly boarded the bus at my school bus stop..Until later, one auntie in her 40s gave up her seat. She was carrying 2 handful of groceries and it looks so heavy..I seriously think that the youngsters should be re-educated. They simply have got no much moral values.

Second thing, I'm really fuming mad when my younger sister change a new phone. I;m not angry that she's changing a new phone. It's just that she changed one that is exactly the same as mine, even the colour is the same. It's not this that make me angry, it's just that I paid for my last three phone myself(including this one) but my younger sister haven't paid for a single phone herself. Even after she started working, she is still not paying for her own stuff. This time, my dad paid for her phone. Don't I hate this?!?! She's so spoilt!!! I hate that!!!
I've been independent since I was 10!!!I've been taking care of other people since I-don't-know-when!!!I've been financially independent ever since I got my first pay!!! I simply don't understand!!! Why are they treating me like that?!?!? What's the problem?!?Is it me?!? If not, who else?!?!
I'm tired~ All I needed is a shoulder to lean on... ...I need a rest...

Thirdly, I'm looking for another job. But all the job offers are $5 per hour. I need to find a job with a higher pay. I wanna rely on nobody!!! I'm not gonna trust anymore.. I just discover that it's actually not easy to trust. You trust, what you get in the end, is an accusation, a blame to shoulder..
Its not worth it. I finally understood that I have only myself to trust, only myself to rely on. Those closest to you may not be those that can be trusted.

Everything seems to be weighing me down. I have no idea how much longer I can take it. I'm like the angel with broken wings, unable to fly, unable to get any help..Totally fallen...

SHOOTS!!

I tried to blog just now, wrote lots of stuff, then someone shake the table, now everything gone..fed up siaz...